TORTURE FOR THE FUTURE

The right touch

from your skin
I kiss you deeply
and wantingly
your breath is
sweet air filling
suffocated lungs
passionately need you
my desires can't escape
even the most open doors
leading to elusive freedom
we all seek for our life
when I think of the pleasures
I die all over again from
exquisite pain of being
present in that extreme
moment when you filled me
with such intensity
that my cries reached
every quiet corner
as wild shivers
run through me
when I picture
your body wrapped
around my own
I cannot resist
even though you
may be the one to
ultimately break me
for I am already frail
and cracked inside
because I know
you will be leaving me
these pleasures
brief moments
of happiness
torture for the future
but for now I am
lavishing in excitement
of discovering chemistry
and bracing for the beauty
of the day when I will weep
for losing a soul
that has centered
so deep in my dreams.


~ Marilen J. Sarian