BEING VULNERABLE

Amazingly you can close your heart if you wanted to
There certainly is a switch to our emotions
I was given real boundaries at the onset of one meeting
Feeling nothing but respect I trotted along
Then there are those you meet that sweep you away
You are told hopeful plans and future days
Letting the floodgates unlock, I was wide open
Two can be equally fine and dandy people
Yet one cannot ever be a risk you can take
But the other is even riskier to fall into
I looked into myself the other day and thought
For a moment I'll switch the emotions, flip them over
In my heart there stirred the complicated brew
I leapt at the thought of the first and I felt the warmth
I defied the memory of the second and sighed
There was a switch and I could feel my aches
I romanced the idea of the ideals for each
I would choose where my feelings are placed
And I can everyday, if I so wanted to
Private emotions don't ever need validation
So I can be vulnerable whenever I want
Since ultimately it is definitely of my choosing
Whether I can get over whoever will leave first

~ Marilen J. Sarian