RELINQUISHING

I was holding onto it
the slightest bit of hope
that I thought may live somehow
figuring that I had the power
to keep the limp lifeless heart
from disappearing forever
that my desires would revive
its beating cells just for me.

Selfish thoughts of control
felt powerful enough to be
above and beyond the reality
that I kept struggling against
I kept fighting to not let go
of something that already let go
of me and had been saying
goodbye for some time now.

I will regain who I was again
the sparkling soul that is within
I can find the clay from which
the most gentle hand has molded
and honor that I am just here
to only perhaps help mold others
because I am not the source
from which they can live and breathe.


~ Marilen J. Sarian