LOSING IT

Really, it was my mistake
I pretended you were crazy about me
Dancing around in a brand new state
Feeling high and pretty free

Really, it was all my fault
I played make believe that you thought of me
Leaping for joy with summersaults
Giddy as a bumbling bee

Really, I misunderstood
I imagined that you were perfect for me
Sighing with relief that it was all too good
Making plans for you and me

Then, the light of truth crashed in my eyes
Blinding me with reality
Truly the relationship was not alive
Dead in its complacency
I walk today with the heaviest of hearts
Placing the past behind
For sometimes I assume I'm smart
But in love I lose my mind


~ Marilen J. Sarian